(UN)Settled

Perhaps, even unsettled is too strong of a word to describe places in life that are most likely caused by ambition. Life isn't bad; certainly not horrible. Things seem to be going well, at least by comparison to where one once was or what they have gone through. However, it's the gnawing, sometimes borderline nagging, feeling that there is something more in store; whether in another time or at another place may remain unknown, but there's a sense that were you are is not where you are meant to stay.

There is a purpose. There is a calling. There is an anointing. And yet the timing and placement of events, people and locations all work together to create experiences in our lives. Our reactions to those experiences are often the driving forces in thinking that there is "more" to this life than what we are doing.

So while you don't find yourself in a hurried frenzy to make dramatic changes in your life, there comes a time of acknowledgement where you start processing and making attempts to figure out what changes can be made, as well as where and when and how. It's a balance of quiet steadfastness, in the confidence and reliance upon God that you are where you are for now with good reason while trusting and seeking His face as the unsettled-ness begins asking "what's next?".

Whatever the situation, the agitation of this internal conflict can take it's toll. Ambition makes one excited about the prospects of change; constraints of reality makes one question many things regarding feasibility.  When the conflict begins to cloud judgement and interfere with current responsibilities, you know you are on shaky ground, as you could potentially put both reality and the desired reality at risk; which is unhealthy.

So, pray this somewhat abstract #associatePastorTuesday, for pastors experiencing this eternal conflict. Whether it be specific to ministry, or perhaps a balancing act between their place in secular market versus ministry, pray for a calming in their spirit. May there be a clarion sense of direction and purpose; where such seem elusive to them. Pray for a steadfast confidence as they continue to carry out current duties and responsibilities and that there would a be strengthening in them, as they continue. Pray for an increased reliance and trust in God, as they seek His face and pray His will regarding their lives and circumstances. May their human ambition not rush in ahead; but a Godly ambition would take over. Pray the Holy Spirit would lead and guide them, as they patiently wait upon the Lord; faithfully working and serving in the place He has positioned them... for however long the season lasts.

Not seeking the applause of man;
Unsettled for glory of God.

- PNC