The Internal War

I've recently been informed that a true man admits when they are wrong.

Of course, it's not "new" information, and yes, thus far, I've withheld my sarcastic response, as the comment was directed towards a current political problem and not me directly. However, I am taking it to heart and acknowledging as such here and now.

I so relate to Paul. This is my biggest struggle. And it's not eternally-heavy issues, but it's the frustrating things of adulthood that keep from living a blessed, prosperous and effective life.

"The things I know to do, I don't. And the things I don't want to do; I continue to do." 

What's this have to do with ministry?  Because I got to thinking about the burden pastors carry; about how much they desire to do for others; to share the Gospel, to make disciples, to lead the church to go out and do the same and to change their communities with the love of Christ for the glory of God.

And they can't do it all. They can't personally meet every need. They can't respond to every request. They can't pray with every person, nor make every visit. The time, energy and money simply doesn't solely exist in their life to solve every problem. Yet, if wishing made it so, an overwhelming majority of pastors would be fight to be first in line. Simply because that's where there heart lives. Not first in line for their own benefit; but to fill the gap of someone who can't get to the front of the line or doesn't feel worthy to stand at the front of the line.

Some people can't stand pastors and church leadership.
I can't help but stand in admiration while simultaneously convicted.

For the handful of things that are out of balance in my life; why would God use me? And while I'm fully aware that many pastors would acknowledge they have their own list of things that are out of balance, they continue to position themselves to desire to be used by God all the more. The question of why still hovers at times, in their lives as well.

I think it's a sign of both an active, yet troubled faith. For we know to press on; but doubt says don't bother.

And we're back to Paul's struggle. Shoulda, coulda, woulda, done this and not that. But alas, here I am. Which is really the only response God cares about when He calls for us. Not all the stuff, not all the excuses. Just as we are, where we are.

Pray, this #seniorPastorMonday, for those pastors struggling with wanting to do more in their ministry, and yet resources, in whatever form they are needed, are lacking. Pray that God would give them wisdom, to steward their time, people and resources properly. Pray for an obedient spirit that would not be so focused on simply doing the most good, but meeting the need to which God has specifically directed them to take care of at that moment. May God continue to raise up people within the church, who will surround them and support them in the ministries and outreaches in which they engage the community and the world. Pray also, for proper balance; to take care of what needs to be done and not become so distracted that the days pass, filled with meaningless moments.

Stronger and better; not because of ourselves,
But by who we are in Christ
To do what He has called us to do
For the glory of God.

- PNC